My AmeriCorps NCCC FEMA Quest : It's almost the end...?!?!?!?!!?

It's crazy to think that there is only about a week and a half left of my final round. I've been exploring Colorado, working hard, and trying to fit as many memories as I possibly can. This experience has changed me. I still fully believe in what I have always believed before this program. But now I have experiences that I doubt I would've ever have gotten if I went to college right after high school. I've learned how to work with many different kinds of people. I've learned that first impressions don't really sum up that person. I've learned that for whatever reason people change. I've learned that even when you live with someone for ten months, you don't always know them. The most important thing I think I've learned is that all of those stupid little jokes, laughs, faces, bonding, and pictures are what I will treasure the most. It's funny to think that after ten months with the same nine people, it'll be over like 'insert snap' that! It's mind blowing to think that I probably won't see them again. I hate thinking about it. My teammate Shosh and I talked about it one night and we had to stop talking about it because we both started to tear up. But of course we will see each other again, right??! Ummm...that may very well be false. Time gets in the way of everything. We are all in different stages of our lives, some will be continuing education (may that be undergrad or grad school) others will be starting jobs and then there's me. I'll be traveling, I can feel it in my blood. I caught that bug and I'm going to be riding it until I can't anymore. It's sad to think that we will all just go back to our lives back at home. Across the country, each teammate will be living their life beyond this program, come June 4th. But the great thing about that is the fact that we had that experience together. My teammate once told me that every person you meet somehow makes an impact on you and you make an impact on them. Whether it is good or bad, that is pretty cool! My teammates and I have been talking about how the past nine months have gone, the good and the bad, but we have also talked about how life is going to be like when we all go back home. To actually have money to spend and save. To be able to just drive around, without having to ask for two other people to come with you. To be able to sleep in a real bed. To know the town you are currently living in. To be able to go wherever and whenever. It's a certain freedom that everyone takes for granted before they enter this program. Personally, I can't wait to be independent, and not have to deal with other people all the time! It's exausting! It has worn me down. It has made me stronger. I can't imagine being back home. Besides the first weekend, seeing my mom and my bestfriend at the airport, seeing my brothers and my dad, attending church and greeting everyone with a big smile and hug. Those are simple things for the first five days. But after that...I don't know what to expect. I'm afraid that when I talk to my friends who have all gone to college, I won't know what to say. I have been out of the reality of theirs for so long that I'm not sure if I could keep up. But then again it might be reversed. I just did something so of the normal path, so unique and challenging in it's own way, that my friends might not know how to react. It's these thoughts that run my mind late at night. It's the doubts that keep coming up in my mind that truly scare me. Because my true fear, is that when I go home I won't have anyone to see. Everyone moved on, and may have forgotten about me. Which of course is complete and utter nonsense. But hey, it's just a thought. Life at the moment is... kind of fantastic. The past six weeks my team and I were staying at the Denver campus in a dorm style building. That has been pretty nice! But just the other day we had to move to a church basement. Awww I feel like I'm back home, sleeping on cots, going to a gym facility for showers and having to live with another team in close quarters. It's quit nice, theres a comfy couch to sit on, an air hockey table, and WIFI. It can't better than that. Thank you guys for reading and I am sorry about the lateness of this post!!! I hope you are having a wonderful life!!! Please don't hesitate to comment or try to reach out to me!